I'd like some quiet

I'd like some quiet!
My head is screaming, trying to tell me everything. Well, go away!
Does each thought have to destroy me?
tearing pieces out of me day and night?

I can't see anymore.
I've had to take out my eyes
They wouldn't leave me alone
They refused to stop replaying all the things around me

Now my eyes have crawled into my skull
where I can't reach them
They play a constant movie
of all the nightmares that were realities

Please, I'm digging through my skin
I'm carving through my flesh
Trying to find the stop, the end to all of this
Oh, all of these goddamn memories!

I'm in an endless dream

I've let the snakes in
I put them in my eyes, my nose, my mouth,  my ears
I feel them pushing through the tiny holes,
searching for good qualities

They've split parts open, my neck is burst
A red half moon with snakes slithering through
I hear them chewing away and I see the back of my skull
playing all the time the time you hit me

Leave me! My body is engulfed in fire
The snakes dance in the redness
I can see myself from far away
Laying there, skin bubbling, melting and no eyes, split open and disappearing

But oh if I go inside my body I just see memories,
feel all the realities of the past and the fire can't distract me
Please finish it, make me ashes, no view of what happened
I want blackness

I want pain in the moment, all the bad men to disappear into nothing
Let the snakes tear me apart, let the fire destroy me, put me into this moment
so I can scream,
God, kill me!