How to survive this

Collapse in the snow drunk on red wine and moonbeams
Realize the people who love you shouldn't treat you like this
Pray to keep an ounce of sanity
Pre crush some speed
Evaporate memories
Plan a trip to Thailand you can't afford to take
Make yourself eat something
He didn't have affairs because you're fat
Sing that song you love to sing
Play with babies. Tell them you love them. Love them
Make amends with your mother
Smoke constantly
Realize you're not enough for him because no one person can be
Drink juice from plastic cups
Cry about nothing
Laugh about everything
Write letters you would never send
Send them.
Get so high your heart might explode
Listen to tlc
Quit drugs
Pray even though you hate God
Go tanning because he hates tans
Get a new tattoo
Tell yourself you can't fix him
Because you can't fix him
You can't fix him.
Pray for his soul
Make new friends
Reunite with old friends
Stop cutting
Talk to his family
Talk to your family
Go shopping
Scream into pillows
Scream about all of this
Ok maybe don't stop cutting
Cut down on cutting
Laugh at puns
Smile too much
Make people uncomfortable
Knit scarves
Regain your identity
Audition for something
Sleep in
Join a gym
Light a million candles
Chant around a fire
Watch all the star wars movies. Even the shitty ones
Make big decisions
Stop dwelling in the past
Sleep with attractive boys and girls
Date someone your own age
Make friendship bracelets for dead authors
Work 8-4 all week
Have dance parties alone on your lunch break
This is reality
Give in to reality
Now be the kind of person you would like to be