Only as bliss

I'm chained to your deceit
but I have finally succumb-
to this notion of leaving,
this inevitable end.
When is the part where I come to love someone else?
Or God forbid, myself?

Though each night you pull me back in
by the place between ribs and hips
Holding my ankle between your legs
and you kiss behind my ears
until I see you only as bliss
and we are both begging the world to end

I am no longer indebted to you
No longer your unmanageable daughter
I found a tiny piece of me in your deal with death
Saw some glimpse of my freedom in the chains on your wrists
I won't keep hiding out in bedrooms
when I'm supposed to scream